Unknown

Memories haunt me, following my every move
Like two bright eyes hunting in the midst of darkness
Forcing me to look deep into orbs of danger
Unwanted reminders of the things I've done
The fear of not knowing
What is lurking behind the light
Cautiously waiting
A sitting target in the night

If I reach out will the eyes attack?
There is just too much unknown
Patience is striping away
Teaching me to embrace despair
Knowing that misery is better than no emotion at all
Wanting to break free and missing what used to be
Might just end up killing me
The past is done and gone
But here my mind and heart collide

The need to let go
To enjoy the reward of overcoming so much
It is right there waiting
But something is holding me back
The pain of life runs deep and I am still young
I have so much more to come
Future hopes intersected
By heart-cries from long ago

Tears keep falling
Voices taunt me about all I've lost
And all I risk losing by holding on
Surrendering to this unknown
Might be my only escape