My Heart...My Poems

Laying here so far away from you Relishing in my memories of us Makes me realize just how much I depend on you for comfort And happiness There are so many miles Between our hearts And yet I've never Felt so close to you The doubts I've had before Are now so far from my spinning mind In turn this shows My practical brain That we are going the distance Me and you My heart belongs to you So much so, that at times, You control my every thought And deepest emotion You do so much to me And don't even know But you love me More than anyone else possibly could And that in itself Made me love you just the same And in the end When the distance Between our bodies and our souls Has been closed for all of time I will have no regrets For anything I've done, said, or sacraficed In honor of you For everything will be justified By the short time I have been given on this earth To be truly in love with you And have the same passion Returned far beyond What I expected or even deserved For

To the girl Who went behind your back Who snuck around and cheated To the girl Who used your love Who took you as a fool To the girl Who had the world Who turned her back and walked away To the girl Who wasn't satisfied Who thought she could do better To the girl Who let you go Who broke your heart To the girl . . . All of the girls Who led your heart away from theirs And right into mine I felt I had to say thank you For giving me all I've ever wanted And all I'll ever need A person so right for me That I now feel blessed To have been given the chance To spend the rest of my life with And all because that girl Made a horrible mistake She never knew What she had But now to her you are forever gone You've left her life and dedicated yours to me So once again to that girl That poor pathetic girl I thank you For letting go and leaving me My one and only true love

I know I said That I would always wait for you Well I thought you need to know That to this day, For this very moment, And for millions more I still mean it from the bottom of my heart I love you more than life itself I know that at times I have doubts And foolishly I express them Which only makes us both paranoid Well I am here to tell you now That my love for you is here to stay And from the moment our eyes first met You've been the man I dream about Sharing the rest of my life with And that is how I want it to stay Until the day we wed For then we will be United forever

You've helped me Get through so much more Than I ever expected you to I've set and pondered a million times Trying to think up ways to show you Just how grateful I am And yet all I can do Is say my thanks Thanks to God For sending me you To be my saving grace Thanks to the gift of love Being planted deep into my heart And last but not least Thanks to you For being there and for Becoming my reason to move on To walk away from the pain And the memories of my childhood And never look back You see, you came Into my life and filled a void I never imagined anyone could fill So once again Thank you For being my friend My shoulder to cry on The only one to make me laugh And my one true love

So I've been thinking About us, about love, About our past and the future to come Whether or not we'll really last How some are against us While many others congratulate us With every passing anniversary No matter how small You see I just can't help But constantly think of all these things Over and over and over again They over take my mind Many times a day I've tried to push them away But somehow they always Seem to come back to haunt me And then all I can seem to do Is ask myself why I even let Simply unimportant things Bother me like I do I haven't found my answer yet But I have learned That I need to try And learn to take one day at a time And to just enjoy everyday Because I know without a doubt That we are completely and madly in love The hard part, however, is just remembering that On days I don't get to hear Your sweet reassuring voice To remind me just how lucky We are to have one another And to be alive this day, This m

The touch of steel against my skin Slowly running across my wrists Pressure building The rage just won't stop Must do something Can't go on this way Tears are falling Filled with emptiness again Why must it be like this Time and time again Calling out now Someone help me Stop me Do anything The blood begins to flow So rich and bright against my skin The pain, it soothes me so My tears, they have stopped now Finally they cease I watch the slow drip drop The blood still flowing I look down and for the first time I see it A puddle, it surrounds me Oh no, what have I done Why hasn't the flow stopped yet The room is spinning Its getting darker I fall to the floor I was only going to do it One last time But its too late I cut too deep Oh God, please forgive me I've made a horrible mistake I'm still young Too young to die I can barely see The room is still fading I begin to hear voices They're getting closer They are calling for

It rained last night The rain made me think of you I dreamt that we were together again In each others arms Dancing in the rain The slow and steady drops Washed everything away All fears and doubts Vanished from our minds We just had each other So there we danced Letting the rain cleanse us Watching our mistakes Fall and gather into puddles Looking deep into each other's eyes Hoping we are meant to be Then it happened The moment every girl dreams of You kissed me in the rain I opened my eyes Sat up and smiled I smiled not because of the dream But because of reality You've made my dreams come true

Wake me Open the eyes Ease the shock of early daybreak With a lovely, hopeful presence Escape all blinding brightness Sliding back into seductive covers Touch me Caress the skin Evoke new nd unknown emotions From ever so soft, tender grazes Erase all stress and tension Night pressed deep in each muscle Hold me Feel the warmth Create a comfort once longed for In the privacy of ultimate closeness Evade a harsh, cold reality Laying snug in a pair of arms Kiss me Lip to lip Embrace a dream-like passion Only found in certain truth Heighten all intimate sensations With a sweet, lingering taste Look at me Watch every move Reacting to each simple gesture Cascading into a sweet encounter Encouraging what is to cme Using all pleasurable means necessary Love me Till death do part Unlike anything ever before felt Deep into a sense of fantasy Beyond robotic grasps of humanity Into an uncontrolled, everlasting realm

Cryptic thoughts Hopes of living a different life Inspirations of angry words Create fantasies engaged in lonelines Searching for escape From the depths of a dark min Anything to walk out With options of never coming home Untold fears Worries of rushed love Past regrets still lingering Among a blossoming relationship Moments rust into memories Distance just deepening discouragement In an already worn heart Sacred dreams Longing to keep such sentiment Confusions must dissipate Becoming an internal enemy Despite all fears and tears And previously written lines Dreams of loving you Override even the darkest mind