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Mind Reader

You say you can read minds
So you must know
The hate I feel
And the way you've hurt my soul
Yelling and cursing
Pointing out every flaw
And letting anger say
Everything is my fault

If you can read minds
Then you have learned
The ways I used to hurt myself
My memories should also be yours

Memories of cutting myself,
Forcing down the alcohol,
And giving away my innocence
Should come to mind

Instead, the real me
Sits right behind a string of lies
Lies I only tell you
Because I don't think you'd approve
Of the decisions and actions that define
Your grown up little girl

You say you can read minds
Maybe its the truth
But can you honestly read mine?
You just know so little about my life

I've thought too many bad thoughts,
Told too many lies,
Made too many mistakes
For you to not hold them all against me
At every chance

So keep lying to yourself
Just like I lie to you
And maybe someday
I'll let you learn the truth

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