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Not Him

I sing the hymns, they sound so sweet
They touch the deepest parts of me
So tell me why I think about you
And not Him

I hear a voice that sounds so near
'I love you' is what it says
So tell me why I hear you
And not Him

I picture walking through those pearly gates
Following the golden roads
So tell me why I'm walking with you
And not Him

At times I feel so lonely
I call out for help and strength
So tell me while I call to you
And not Him

He is supposed to be put first in my life
But somehow he seems to fall second
So tell my why my number one is you
And not Him

I try to love Him
But I feel as if I'd be abandoning you
So tell me why I'm telling you
And not Him

I've tried to explain
Why you seem to mean so much more
I figure I've just grown
Too dependent of your love
So somehow I will have to make it up to Him
For I will not be ashamed of showing my love to you
And not Him
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