The Reason Why

In today's time
Young love has a tendency to fail
No matter how strong
They thought their feelings were
This failure can be the result
Of many different scenarios played out

They can grow apart
And come to want different things from life
Their relationship could evolve
Into something purely sexual
They could face objection from their families
Which could tear them apart
They could reach a mutual agreement
That their feelings have changed
Or disappeared all together

I know I have listed many things
That can inevitably go wrong
But the scary thought
Is that my list is only a few
Of the multiple possibilities

I only say this to warn my peers
As to what could lie ahead
For their mind and heart

I fear that my horrible examples
Will take place in our own relationship
I've often tried to put
The negative feelings aside
But often times doing that
Causes me to pull away from you
The man who loves me most

I hide those feelings
And the following horrible events take place
You touch me and I flinch
You kiss me and I pull away
You look at me with that longing look
And I turn away

I felt I must explain all of this
Because after all is said and done
I start to feel guilty
For thinking, and physically pulling away
From your love
All because of a silly paranoid fear

I am asking for your forgiveness
And future understanding
As to why I sometimes become
An all together different person
I am truly sorry
Because until the day we wed
I'm sure my fears will come and go